Tortellini makes me tortilooney

I made it four weeks on the keto diet! I finished the first four weeks of this program and now I get to have one cheat meal a week to refuel my glycogen levels. It felt like I was running on empty and was seriously time to "refeed".

So tonight I had my first cheat meal. When you cheat, you're supposed to have stuff that's terrible for you. You're supposed to shock your system into kicking your metabolism back into high gear. Here I am after three helpings of tortellini alfredo, half a loaf of bread, a handful of jordan almonds, three chocolate truffles, a handful of mike and ikes, a black & white cookie and two glasses of v8 fusion. I don't have a food baby...I have food triplets. I'd feel terribly guilty that I ate this while watching the Biggest Loser if it weren't for the fact that I'm doing this as part of a diet regimen.

I really struggled figuring out what I wanted as my cheat meal. It feels wrong to eat this stuff and to want to eat it. Truth be told, I didn't get any sense of satisfaction eating bread or chocolate the way I used to. Before starting any of this fitness nonsense, when I craved something, partaking of it released pressure. Much like the relief of scratching an itch, fulfilling a craving gave me a sense of euphoria. Sure it's tasty, but I don't feel like I just fueled some demon inside my body lusting for carbs.

Now that i've passed the initial four week period and I've finally gotten my first cheat meal, I realize how important this diet was for my journey. Some people I tell about it say it sounds extremely unhealthy and think that I'll gain a ton of weight back when I go off it. But you know what? This diet is a huge test of my self control and will power. Sure, I've wanted to quit my diet a few times b/c I was frustrated with a lack of results. But I never felt the urge to cheat. The times I wanted to quit I wanted fruit. I wanted whole wheat toast. I wanted my low-fat swiss cheese and nonfat yogurt. I don't feel the need to eat pizza or chinese food or burgers. I crave things that are good for me and I realize what a huge step that is.

From this point forth I get to have one cheat meal a week to refuel on carbs and feed off that glycogen for the week. I can't wait to see what results I get on the scale and in my energy levels for my workouts after this!