Recalculating...

I'm not sure if it's because my brother's wedding is finally around the corner (dear lord that time passed quickly!) or if I'm losing steam, but I feel as though I haven't been working very hard lately in the fitness area. Perhaps I'm nervous that with the wedding around the corner, if I work too hard my dress won't fit right. I mean I can't go losing any more than 3-5 lbs this week or my dress will be loose.

I've been doing a lot of substituting in my diet b/c of a lack of time for cooking or just b/c I got sick of eggs and I fear that it's having an effect on my weight-loss results. Shane seems to think that while substituting turkey bacon, cheese and pork rinds (don't judge me) for the eggs is protein and fat equivalent, it's very high in sodium so it may make me retain water. I don't think that's the case, but I can't help but wonder if I could be losing more if I just ate the damn eggs. I've been going to the gym just as much (I've hit the gym for 90 minutes at least 3 days this week) and i asked Shane to beat me up during my sessions with him this week and yet somehow I still feel like I'm half-assing it. Is it because I'm getting used to working so hard? Or am I lying to myself about the effort I'm really putting in?

I'm considering a kick-start after the wedding. Vinnie and Kelly's wedding was my first goal marker date, so once it's over I need a new one. I will give myself a final goal date of April 22nd 2010 where I will have reached my ideal weight...whatever that may be. And by then I'll be running and training for Maddy's Memorial 5k and more, hopefully. Other than stepping it up 3 notches at the gym, I will go back to the keto diet religiously meaning no more substituting. I'm going to eat the damn eggs and I'm going to like it. And I'm going to eat everything even if it get sto be late at night and I dont' want to.

So here's to Monday Oct 26th....may that be the start of Phase 2!