At my largest, I never thought I could be smaller than a size 12 without looking emaciated and grossly thin. Here I am at a size 12 and I realize how much fat I can still lose. I guess I never had a concept of how large a size 12 still is or maybe I just really believed that I was framed larger than I actually am. I never felt more confident about being able to fit into single digit sizes!
On a semi-related note, I never realized how difficult it was going to be to see myself as the size that I am. I look around at other women and try to compare how I look next to them. Am I bigger? Am I smaller? Am I the same size? My body map is way off. I know that comes with BDD again but it's so frustrating.
I am thankful that I'm losing weight evenly and that I'm not looking like a victim of a Voo-Doo doctor's wrath, but it's making it very difficult to see a change in my body. It sounds ridiculous that 50 lbs down I can't see how my body looks so different but it's the truth! It's very difficult for me to believe that I'm as "thin" as people see.
When will my brain catch up with my body????
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