To say that "a lot has changed" since my last post would be the understatement of my weight loss journey. Since May 2010, 9 months ago, I moved to north jersey. I was commuting to Princeton from north Jersey (an hour and a half each way in traffic) for five months before I finally quit and went to retail full time. I quit retail after a month and started a temp project through an agency. I've had two new boyfriends and am now currently with the newest one (and plan on that for a long time). I've also decided to go back to grad school for an MBA and have completed the applications except for the GMAT test. I took an online math course through a county college to brush up on math for the test. I could give you all the excuses why I haven't made my exercise a priority but it all comes back to the same end result: I've gained back weight, I've lost a lot of muscle and tone, and I slipped into a depression that leaves me low energy and low determination. I literally have back pain and muscle atrophy from my lack of activity. My job consists of being chained to a desk all day with only a 30 min lunch break and my evenings consist of watching crappy TV while I mindlessly stuff my face with anything that will pacify the unsatiated apetite I've developed from a lack of happiness. I set my alarm to get up earlier before work but I wind up snoozing for 30-90 minutes because the idea of getting out of bed is just unbearable.
I miss my friends. They all live so far away now. I want a job I don't dread going to. It's all just piled up on me. The one thing I am truly happy with, my boyfriend Mitch, should not have to pick up the pieces of my emotional sanity as often as he does. He's fantastic about dealing with me when I go into a sad fit but it's not fair to do that to him at the frequency it's happening right now. I want to run the MadDash 5k again this year. I want to run the JFK Runway 5k again. I want to run my half marathon. I want to reach my ultimate goal and keep it. I don't want to pacify my emotions with sloth and glutton anymore.
During my many attempts before, I've always had this overzealous game plan about how to get back into this. But I think this time just making baby steps may be the best choice. I haven't been eating junk necessarily. Just too much of even healthy stuff. So the first steps will be to stop the binging episodes and make a true and honest effort to be active everyday. It doesn't have to be 90 minutes at the gym of hardcore cardio but 3-4 gym trips and either a walk around town or walking around the mall (if its cold) or just something to be on my feet and not sitting on my butt. That's not too hard. It's not completely revamping my life and it's not completely revamping my fridge/pantry contents. Just be mindful of what I'm putting in my body and make it move more. I've even started making an effort to pace at my desk every few hours just to get on my feet.
If you're reading this, I need your help. I can't do this alone. I want to, but I need the support. The reason I was able to succeed before is because I was too busy to hang out with anyone or see anyone. I worked and I worked out and I had no distractions. But now that I have time to see people again with only one job going, I need your support to hang out in places that aren't just restaurants. Since winter is technically winding down, maybe we can do outdoor activities. Let's make an effort to be more active. It's good for everyone involved.
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